SAHM?

Last week I got the worse news, my Nanny was leaving us for another family. Since we are moving this summer, (did I mention we are moving this summer?) she needed to line up work and will be only willing to help us out on Fridays until we move in July.

This emotionally hit me hard. Like I cried for two days hard.

She is the most dependable person in my life. She's never late, when she is she calls. She helps me with everything and every time I come home my house smells so…..CLEAN. 

I realize all the things that were once on her plate are now going to be on mine, and for two days I panicked and had an emotional breakdown. Actually some moments I still secretly panic.

See I've never seen myself as a 'kid friendly' mom. I love my kids more than life itself but I feel like I constantly have to entertain them and take them places and arrange play dates,  and I don't remember my parents ever doing things like that. Maybe they did, I should ask my mom. Anyway, rather than get another Nanny and go through the entire process again just to take over till the rest of the school year, I'm opting to do it my self and save the money.

I'm looking forward to this time actually. Spending some quality time with my Jaybird before he goes off to day care in the fall.

I'm not sure why I forget that these are precious moments and we shouldn't take them for granted. I'm guess recently I've really been missing the other part of my life that I left many years ago called a career. BUT until I get that part back I'm going to enjoy all the snotty noses and hugs I can get.